Vegetarian-ness

So, I've been thinking about it for a little while. What would it like to be a vegetarian? Sure, I have meat in my diet fairly regularly, but I have been much more mindful about it recently.

It's not like I hate meat. I have two amazing cooks as parents, so there's no complaining. I just feel kinda self-conscious about killing all these lives just to eat. I've been trying to not eat meat when I can, but we eat as a family so I can't really do that for when we're eating all together. I've thought about telling my mom and dad about it, but I don't want to have to explain myself, since I don't want them to take it personally, that I don't like their cooking. Though if I do want to try being a vegetarian, it would help to tell them, since there's lots of vegetarian food you can get, and living on just what's around is a little harder. Well, mom, if you're reading this, here's your tip-off. Geez, I feel like such a bad person, having to say it through a blog. X(

But anyway, I had been thinking about it for a while, then Jess and Lisa got me thinking about it more, since they're both vegetarians. Jess is a kinda vegan, but I wouldn't be able to do that. Too much of a hassle and you'd have to sacrifice so much...

I don't think being a vegetarian would be that hard, I've already kinda prepared myself in my mind. Like, I try to eat like a vegetarian as often as I can, and I feel bad whenever I'm not, so psychologically, I'm set. It's just the parents and everyone else that I would have to work on. Which, I think, is better than the other way around. I don't know, I really want to try it, but I don't know how to get the ball rolling....

Thoughts? If anyone is even reading this? 

Backpacking

We got back a few hours ago from Point Reyes from my first backpacking trip! We left Thursday, hiked to our site, did a day-trip on Friday, then hiked in today. It wasn't full fledged backpacking, but it did include much of the experience. I don't have all that much to write down about it, but I just thought I'd take a minute. Pictures up later, maybe.

Let me just say, it was not as hard as I was anticipating. The packs are built to carry more weight, and you pack the right kind of stuff, but even so I had been thinking I would need to rest every other step. Nah, it was lighter than my school backpack! Or around the same anyway.

The one thing was, it would have been good to have had longer to break in my boots. I got a few bad blisters, which made the hike back a little less pleasant. I guess that makes it good that it wasn't like, hard-core backpacking. 

I would also like to note how delicious the food was. Yum. Of course, my mom is an amazing cook so it was no surprise. And when you're on Trail, everything tastes fantastic. But still, we had some remarkable meals. I'm drooling, just remembering about it. 

We were at Point Reyes, at the Glen campsites. They were not as spectacular as Wildcat, which we hiked to and was by the beach (our day trip on Friday), but it was still nice, considering we weren't even expecting to be able to get a site at all at Point Reyes. It would have been nice to be a little farther apart though... 

I don't really know where I'm going with this, so I think I'll just end. :D

EOANLSAA

That's right. 

I'm making.

A listing.

Of all.

The amazing acronyms.

I have witnessed and taken part in.

HOW EPIC IS THAT?!?!?!

And it is titled.

EOANLSAA. An acronym itself. Standing for. 

Encyclopedia of Awesome-No, Like Super Awesome-Acronyms 

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Coming soon. 

Leadership

So, it's been a few days. And I still have much to go over that's happening, but I haven't gotten to write about. One major topic is my involvement in leadership stuff.

Back in November, after Prop 8 passed, I organized something like a silent protest regarding Prop 8. In short, I got 100+ students and a few teachers to wear black to commemorate equality's death by Prop 8 passing. Link that hopefully works.

Then, sometime, not exactly sure when, I started a group on Facebook combating homophobia and the little slurs that seem harmless but can be very hurtful. Here's where I try to put the link to that. 

I also tried/did start a GSA (gay-straight alliance) at my middle school. I had been wanting to do one for some time, but I never got around to it or got up the courage to start one. It's not exactly a full-fledged GSA since it isn't classified as a club (apparently Graham is a no-club school, even though I know that we do have clubs such as manga club, Twilight club, rocket club and more), but I'll just settle for now. Sigh. 

So all of this led to my getting a leadership award from Outlet! (Outlet=LGBTQQ support and empowerment group, part of CHAC) Well, I haven't gotten it yet. I'm getting it at their annual fundraiser, Out to Eat. But yay!! So that's great.

I'm really trying to make a difference in the community and over all the world. I think some people don't know that about me, or they don't take me seriously when I say it. But it's true. I really do. And sometimes I get so frustrated because I see all the stuff others are doing and I compare myself to that, and I don't measure up, and I feel like I'm doing nothing. And then people at school or whatever tell me I'm too serious and need to lighten up. It's just so frustrating, like I feel I need to please different people and parts of me. And I know what they're saying has some validity, because I'm all for having fun and being light and just enjoying life, but I just get so caught up with all the crap in the world and how I want to change it that I have so little time to enjoy things, you know? 

And then I feel so unworthy of getting a leadership award, or being looked up to, because I feel like I have no backbone. Like, it's can be really hard for me to speak up or contribute to a discussion or something to a big group, especially when I don't know them very well. I just feel so inadequate sometimes. Sigh. 

So anyway, I'm trying to really get involved in all this activism and leadership stuff so I can achieve that goal. But I just feel like I do so little and I'm making no progress in just voicing my opinion and stuff... Why do I have to be like that! It's not like I care what others think about me, I really don't. I have no clue what makes me just freeze up like that. Which makes it very irritating. It would be so much easier if I had some psychological disorder or something of the like to blame it on.... 

Whee Procrastination!

Okay, sorry it's been a few days.

I've been really busy and stressed recently, and haven't gotten around to it. Which is ironic, considering right now I have a lot of things to be doing, including studying, homework, and sleeping. But I wanted to update (someone semi-reminded me), even if it's just short. This might be the extent of it. But then I feel bad (my day and week have been too long to go over them). I know I rarely have time to write this, as well as my actual journal, but I think they can be very theraputic and I want to get into it. So it may not be every week, but I'll try to update often. 

In case you don't know me, we'll do some intros. I'm half Taiwanese, quarter Irish, eighth French, sixteenth Scotish, sixteenth English. I'm gay. I'm a committed individual who wants to change the world and gets very frustrated because I'm not doing enough. I would keep writing this, but it feels awkward. So I'm gonna stop. And go do one of those things I have to do. XD